This is a poem i wrote that decribes how I see depression in my life
Depression Shadow
Even though the sun is gone it is always at your door
I try to hide from it but it still finds me where ever I go
It doesn’t stop when I want it to even when I plead
I try to make a bargain with it but all it does is take the happiness from me
It gets bigger some days that I can’t hide it and people stop and stare
It makes me conscious of it and it makes me more aware
The shadow can change into any shape it wants
Some days it’s a blanket that slows me down
Other days it’s like a rain cloud on a sunny day
Making mean and negative thoughts that won’t go away
I hide in the shadows hoping it won’t look my way
But it always invites it’s self to stay
It’s got that evil grin that makes you know
That it won’t be going away
You push and shove it out the door
But it crawls back looking for more
It haunts you in your dreams at night
It loves to watch you cry
It takes pleasure in what it does to you inside
You want those days when it wasn’t there
You try to lock it in your soul but it only festers there
You cry out why me what have I done to you
It doesn’t care who it takes you by the heart and runs you to the ground
It makes you feel even more down
It creeps around so you know that it’s there
Making sure that you are aware