hi faith, long time no speak, hope you are well....

these feelings of numbness will pass when you are at a stronger place mentally, it is just a way of your mind defending itself whilst it is building the walls you need. dont worry about it, and let time takes its course. you will know when the time is right, trust me.

but until then just express how you feel about certain memories, dont bottle it up and over-think about it. just say how it makes you fell at the time, even if it is numbness, and then move on.

my only suggestion would be to continue life as normal and deal with the memories as and when you get them, and use the time when you feel numb to build these walls, you will know what to do. and i have all my faith in you...no pun intended lol....

take care

simon