((Teepee)),

Doing the "right thing" in therapy is to slowly "talk about" the things that trouble you.

When you were very young a "teacher" scared you and you were "afraid" to speak up and every day it became a problem for you.

Well, that is what you are doing "now" too with this therapist, you want to trust her, she is an authority figure to you, so you are afraid she will judge you somehow and hurt you so you hold back. How we overcome that is by "facing our fears" and deciding to change our pattern of fear and just talking about things.

I was actually a lot like that myself in some ways. I could help others and I did a lot of things that people respected too. However, it was very hard for me to "open up and talk about my own life challenges and even my history of abuse". In my life there were many times where I tried to ask for help or talk about things and people were mean and dismissive towards me, it hurt so badly that I began to feel that "it was bad to open up and discuss the bad things that happened to me in my life.

Believe me, you are really not alone with this challenge either. I know that when you finally open up and make a decision to "heal" once and for all, you will be glad you did.

You can always practice here with your new PC friends and supporters.

(((Hugs)))
OE