No, I don't begrudge my friend at all. I know she has my interests at heart, and I have to admit her cutting honesty is one of the things I most appreciate about her.

You are right about the comparison situation, and I actively try not to do it, but sometimes it is difficult, especially since most of my friends are higher-functioning than me.

In any case: today I took a bunch of steps towards improving my mental state. It had been a while since I had taken care of myself, so I did. I spent time with my family and I did some exercise and I engaged in some of my hobbies. I did not manage to write 1000 words in my writing, but it is definitely a goal of mine and I will be trying harder tomorrow.

Thank you all for your support.