I'm currently seeing a new therapist for about three weeks now, and during our last session she pointed out there's an emotional disconnect with me. She pointed out that I was telling her about an incident that is sad, I could be angry, etc. and as I'm telling her about it, I'm doing it with a smile on my face and speaking in a sing-song lighthearted manner.

She's not the first therapist to point this out to me. In fact, I've had three or four. I read the notes by one therapist who said that I don't seem to express my emotions well.

I tried to focus on my insides to see how I felt when telling her this incident, and there wasn't anything there... so I continued in my usual manner.

How do I access my emotions? How do I express them - I'm not deliberately trying to force a smile on myself - I don't feel like I need to be happy and upbeat for other people.

I just don't know what to do and I feel like this causes a major block in my life. I had an incident where I was mugged, and when I told my friends about it they didn't believe me because they said I was smiling, speaking lightheartedly about it in a, "Hey guys! you'll never believe what happened to me last night! lmao! let me tell you about it!"