From what i read on your profile, it seems that you can't quite make up your mind to do anything about your situation. You're not sure if you are depressed or not. Please don't feel foolish asking for help. You will feel better if you do something to help yourself. That means seeing a dr or counselor to be diagnosed and get treatment if that is what you need. I think that it will be a bit difficult to move ahead until you address this issue. If you aren't ready to do that then maybe you can read some of the information on this site. Post here and read the the posts. You may gain some encouragement from knowing that you are not alone.
I hope you get the help you need.