Not at all. I was born a Catholic but never took religion serious for it to effect me there, nor was I raised for it to be really bad for me. I just picked it up on my own, I suppose. I guess what makes me feel guilt is...come to think about it; nothing is springing to my mind. Honestly. I guess I could say I'm not doing the actual act of sex and stuff, but it goes with what we were saying before about how it's a normal activity and that's something I do know...but my mind tells me something different - if that makes sense?

It's just weird because like I said, sometimes I'll want to distance myself. Like, sometimes when I do it I'll wait until the month is over with and "start fresh" and not do it anymore for a odd number of days until I have the urge. Sometimes I'll just not want to live my normal everyday life when I do it until like I said, the month is over with.

Hopefully I'm making sense, lol. It's just weird. I hate how my mind works like this. I just want to think normal. -_-