You're making sense. I don't understand where the guilt is coming from but I understand what you're saying. If you were spending hours out of each day and it was interfering with everyday life I could see a problem but...
I hope that therapist can help you sort it out. And you may be right... just having a conversation here may help. That part about the time of abstinence/penitence is kind of interesting. You have any thoughts about that?