About the abstinence/penitence part I guess I could about that is, I'd obviously prefer the real thing. And I can be patient, I'm not your typical guy who needs to go bang chicks. I've been in two serious relationships (one for three years; who I actually talked to about this problem before) and another one for 6 months. And I slept with another girl before as a fling. So it's not like I haven't done it before, you know?

I'm already talking to a therapist about a certain problem right now (you could view my past threads) and maybe part of that has interfered with my head in a small way - who knows? But I guess talking to him will help. It's just really difficult being in the situation I'm in and just not thinking things will get better at this point in time. I hate it, lol.