Thank you all for your replies, I have a lot of the same things as others have listed so I do see the OCD.
It was horrible after I started getting unexplained seizures and then diagnosed with epilepsy at 25, can you imagine the obsessions that took over? If I don't get eight hours of sleep I'm freaking out all day, if I don't do things a certain way I'm freaking out, the obsession part really kicked my butt with the epilepsy until my obsessions started to eventually change.
I do the crack thing, I can't step on any cracks when I'm walking, I played poker with family last night and everyone noticed the OCD and called me out on it (these are inlaws) because I color coordinated my chips (the chips were all worth the same amount so color coordinating didn't matter), stacked them in piles evenly organized and went out of my way to throw out the chips that didn't add up, keeping the green ones till last and trying to get rid of the blue ones ASAP. I think they already knew about the OCD but my husbands cousin was there who we never see and be called me out on it.
It just makes me feel more comfortable. I've also of course got a very unlucky number (666) and go out of my way to avoid that number as much as possible, when I get change back from the store if its $6.66 I will leave some of the money there with the receipt or buy something else or put something back, when the speedometer gets close to 66.6 miles on the car I have to reset it, if I don't I get so easy, often causing me to pull to the side of the road to calm down.
I just figured these were things I did to be comfortable, they relax me.
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