Thanks. I have seen so many T's! Finally, I have decided - there will be no more therapy. It has not improved my life significantly. In fact, some have made it worse and just taken my money.

I have come to the conclusion that if you can't have the life that you want - and I can't - then there is no use in really trying further. Being gay does not suit me. All I ever wanted was a boring, average life. Childhood abuse issues and being gay made that impossible and neither can be healed / changed. I do not fit in the LGBT community and am despised by it. I despise it in return. I am very world-weary and bitter and angry, and that only complicates things.