My replies aren't matching up with the right person grrr bummer. Hi, I think I'm new to this group or forum. I was initially diagnosed with mixed state rapid cycling bp2 approx 7 years ago, but it has now apparently morphed into more conventional bp1 over the last few years. I preferred the bp2 because i had more up's than downs. I hate the downs and don't cope well. At least on the up's I'd get lots of housework and stuff done. I have been on the medication merry-go-round for years, finding the right ones, right combo, right doses. Seem to find good one, then 2 years into it they stop working then back to the drawing board. I've just come through a recent depression and subsequent med change, which I'm feeling positive about. I can already notice a difference. I do believ there is a right medication and therapist for evryone out there. I don't belive you can treat bp without medication, therapy and a strong support network. These 3 things are simply vital. I have tried all, none and combo's; and the most success I have is with all 3. I find it hard accepting my diagnosis because of the stigma attached, for exaple when there is a murderer on tv and it turns out they have bp, I wonder what the person sitting next to me is thinking etc. I try to not let my bp be an excuse for being a normal functioning productive member of society, but it is hard at times when I can fluctuate so dramatically and I put so much pressure on myself. I'm a bit exhilirated at the moment becasue I put on a bunch of weight with my meds ( for years) but have recently started to lose weight without even trying, so maybe it's the combo I'm on now; maybe my body is finally returning to it's former glory. Let me be a dreamer OK? I'm looking for other similar people to me on here to share lifes up's and downs with. While I can talk I'm also a good listener. As well as bp I also have bpd, mdd, gad, and bdd (if that helps anyone). Anyone new to being diagnosed or suspecting they may have it, feel free to ask me questions. I'll be only to happy to answer them if i can. I believe I'm a good role model because I haven't rolled over and given into my condition. I do believe you can live a good quality of life with the illness and I'm a very posoitive advocate for trying everything there is out there to get help. Look forward to hearing from you soon xo