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Originally Posted by 1914sierra
Probably highly unlikely, but what if you did run into someone you know there? Couldn't that be a good thing, that someone you know has an understanding of what you are dealing with?
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I see where you're coming from, but my answer is a resounding NO! It's not so unlikely. I'm in the UK, I grew up in this town, I know a lot of people, and my family and my husband's family are both here. It's the kind of place where people often know each other. Apparently they have occasionally had group members who know each other before.
While they have policies in place to deal with this, I don't want friends or acquaintances to find out unless I choose to tell them. I'm also afraid of running into people from school, where I was bullied a lot. Might be good to run into one of those people and have them see they made a bad time worse, but the idea of being in this kind of group with anyone I know makes me feel really anxious and exposed.
Sorry, I don't mean to seem like I'm attacking you. But I don't want or need anyone in my real life to know what I'm going through, the thought of them knowing just brings me out in emotional hives. I have one friend who knows - she's had similar experiences and has done a lot of her own therapy, and I've talked to her a bit about CSA. But I really don't want anyone else in my life to find out.
The thought of anyone knowing makes me feel sui, is the thing.
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Originally Posted by Syra
Are you afraid someone would recognize you becuase of CSA? I can understand feeling that way.
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Thanks Syra, that's pretty much it. I did actually try to read that book, but gave up on it for reasons I can't remember right now. I think I'm at a stage where it's too triggering.