Yesterday I was with my boyfriend. It was dark so I couldn't see him, but I knew he was there because I could hear and touch him. But it didn't really feel as though he was there.

I said his name and kept touching him to try and convince myself that he was there in reality, but it didn't feel right, I couldn't truly believe that he was there. It was as though I needed grounding. This has happened with other situations and other people in the past.

Does anyone else get this? Do you think it could be because the OCD brain doesn't process information properly, leading sufferers to get "stuck" repeating rituals until it feels as though they have actually completed them? So I couldn't accept that he was really there because my brain wasn't processing the information properly? Or was it dissociation?