Thanks bharani1008,
I was previously on meds and couldnt handle the side effects so I stopped taking them.
I did rather well for a while on my own but I am back to that place where I need meds and am more willing to take them and adjust them than ever before.
Pets....I dunno. I don't have any real stability built into my life right now so that wouldnt be a good option for me or the pet. What I dream of is a really awesome aquarium because of how much I adore fish and the ocean. I would love a huge one....100 gallons. Maybe one day.