Thank you all. I am just so lost and angry and upset right now.

A bit of history on my "friends"; they use me as their free shrink. And when I need them, they shrug me off and act like "whatever you solved my problem why do I need to solve yours". This doesn't feel like concern to me. This feels like a way that one of them wanted to get rid of me, because they know my mom is now fiercely over protective after my brother died, and that would put restrictions on me. If they cared so much they would have been brave and done it face to face rather through an anonymous email. That's just pathetic.

I am so angry and so tired. I have been working so hard to stop and show my mom I am okay and they just ruined it all. I am a 22 year old that is going to be living like a teenager that's been grounded for failing a test. If they thought this was going to help me, they were idiots. If they thought this was going to make things easier, they are idiots. I don't even have friends anymore. Screw them, really.

Now I feel alone, I feel urges, I feel terrified. I am so angry I just keep sobbing. I am so done with people. I was made to be alone.