I understand you both completely.

I had friends... then I got depression. I was open with people about it. I didn't necessarily expect them to support me (I've been a weird fiercely independent person all of my life), but I guess I didn't expect them to shun me because of it!

So now I've moved back home and I'm kind of alone too. I have some friends but again, not really go to people. My one go-to person is moving to a different city for his PhD..

I'm also afraid of exhausting people too.. if I do find a go-to person. I had a friend who waited with me the 8 hours one time in a waiting room to see a doctor when I was feeling extremely suicidal.. and she was awesome. I honestly thought she deserved sainthood for that. But then afterwards, while she really wanted me to get better and everything, she didn't want to hang out. She said I was "emotionally exhausting" to hang out with. I appreciate her telling me the truth and everything, no matter how hard that was to hear. But now I'm afraid of leaning on someone again because I don't want to exhaust the people I care about....

It's a hard situation.. but I guess that's what this is for. We could all support each other?? Feel free to friend request me or I could friend request you. Whatever you guys want. I'm just happy to be on here to not feel alone with my craziness.