I was doing okay, though. That is why I am so upset. I have been fighting urges and I have been doing better than I have been in a very long time. Now I feel like I am on the edge all over again. I am just so frustrated.

But you're right. I can use this to open a dialogue with her. It's just extremely intimidating. No one ever knew and now it's just out there. I am a private person, and this is a private disease. I am just scared.