I have been trying to hit a reset button and rid my body of all it's toxins: cigarettes, sugar- yuck. I have not actually p since Thursday and then two days not eating, followed by today where I did take in a small amount of calories....anything I do around the food is just to try and avoid the p. if I starve myself I won't have to purge so I guess this is where I am at.

((((After Re-reading this I can hear my therapist cringing and telling me why all of the above is so screwed up. I get that this up and sets the stage for more up and down, I am just really, really, really needing to stop purging ASAP and starvation is the only way I know how.))))