As i've mentioned before, sometimes I don't have to be angry or upset to cut, I just do it. The last few days i've been pretty relaxed, low stress, but i've still been cutting.

I originally reserved one spot (cut a square outline in my leg) for cutting, but I eventually ran out of room - and the cuts bleed but I barely notice them anymore (maybe skins gotten thicker?). I have tried a few random areas, and ended up doing a few deeper (than I had been) cuts in my thigh which wasn't the brightest idea because today is the first in three or four days that I can sit on that side or pull my pants up without hesitating. Frankly the only one that satisfies me anymore is the breast. But I don't want anymore scars on breast (tanks/dresses) and thigh (shorts) to bring up any convo. I am a feminine girl, so I like to wear whatever.

I'm getting frustrated because these cuts don't hurt anymore. And I know the only way to get them to hurt is to cut deeper (which is good for more blood but wheres the limit on when to stop going deeper?) and will result is more sever scarring.

Has anyone experienced this numbing of pain? Besides cutting deeper (trying not to) what do you do?