I am so up and down. I feel isolated. The other day, I SI'd. I haven't done that in quite a while.

My BPD has me stuck in this place...where I'm either ecstatic or at the deepest end of sorrow. I am stuck in a place of discomfort, sadness, anger, and jealousy. And I feel so lonely. A couple weeks ago, my best friend (brother, not by blood) moved to another state. He has been my safety person for 5 years. I hang out with him, go to him, when I'm depressed. We used to see each other every night.

Now he's gone, and I feel so lonely. I only have 3 other friends here, and 2 are also about to leave. The last is my partner, whom I don't always feel comfortable relying on in the same capacity (I can only push my problems on them so much).

So I feel very isolated and sad. I would appreciate someone to PM or text with. I need a friend. I need help.