...but I don't know where else this would fit.

So much is going on right now that it's kind of overkill to be starting therapy for my OCD as well. My auntie just died (after suffering a lot with cancer for a long time), my housing stuff just kicked off and stuff's going on there (long story short: trying to get my own place), my dad's away at Scotland because of my aunt, and he won't be back. My sleep has gone a bit to crap again, which isn't providing a ton of strength that I kinda seriously need, right now. Might sound like nothing to some people, but I struggling with it, none-the-less.

I'm tempted to cancel the therapy, but I took some unusual routes to get therapy so easily, without jumping through certain hoops, and it would probably take many more months before I'd get the opportunity again. My OCD is always a problem, just a different severity; I am disabled by it, but I'm alive, and I'm worried, that piling too much onto my plate will make me unstable.

Not sure of the point in this thread. My diary is inaccessible so I cannot just type this crap over there, so I guess I wanted somewhere to say some crap. I don't really know what to do. Also waiting for results on a blood-test, and that's a bit of stress. Going to these places is going to be hard enough. I have really bad anxiety, and that causes so much problems, as often, I don't even want to go out the house.

The therapy starts on the 22nd, which is really soon. I'd have to go to town myself (a lot of anxiety right there... it's a rare event for me to walk to town on my own) and then sit in that waiting room with all those people, alone, which is a huge amount more anxiety. I then have to see that woman, alone. I am not good with doing this crap alone. I'm so used to my dad being there at times like these; feel so weak because of that. 27 years old and still need that sort of support - a grown man should stand his own and fight his own battles, or so part of my believes.