i am going through this exact thing right now. ever since thanksgiving the only thing ive gone out for is doc appts & to go to the store with hubby. the other day i wanted something from the store & i took half the day for me to work up the courage to go. i feel so paranoid, anxious, afraid, upset, seized with fear.. i feel like if i go out of the house everyone is looking at me. before this spell started i had been doing my walks/jogs almost everyday since august. i was losing weight & feeling so good & i was even going to see my grandma & going out to store with mom & grandma. this is so paralyzing i cant stand it! tomorrow i go to my therapist & im gonna tell him all about it. thank the Lord my appt is tomorrow cuz i leave with my husband when he goes to work, go to my dads in the city, & my dad takes me to my appt & i hang out til hubby gets off work. im gonna use this as an opportunity to get out of this horrible cycle. im gaining back weight i lost while walking & jogging cuz im also a compulsive overeater & im not getting any exercise. I hear that bit also about take a walk, get out & do "SOMEthing", go sit in the yard.....etc. my husband says this stuff & my mom takes it personally that i dont go anywhere with her & i dont come up & see them. they are the next street up--this is how bad it is. of course my mother in law lives next door & i dont go over there either. i open the curtain on my 2 doors in my apt & i peep out. it just took everything i had to walk out in the yard & get my klonopin from mother in law which someone keeps them for me cuz im an addict & recovering alky & if I have them ill abuse them. im glad i found this place cuz atleast i can type out what im thinking. i envy all of u who get sleepy on xanax & stuff. i get so wired up all my klonopin does is make me feel a little calmer. doc wont increase dose cuz he knows im an addict & matter of fact hes weaning me off of them right now cuz of when i abused them. i think thats whats thrown me into this paranoid mania. any replies would help & it helps me to read others replies & i know im not crazy or alone.