I feel its the least i can do on these forums, i can only really respond to posts that i can relate to myself!

Its all a sense of perspective with this, you see it as a fact that you are 'worthless' when if you think about it rationally, its only a belief that you hold. Theres a big difference between the two (believing and knowing - see signature lol!), and its easy to have a negative filter over reality when you are in so much pain. I hope you find some shelter from the rain soon enough