Thanks for the support, everyone. I really appreciate it.

Heather, I think you're right about the social isolation making anxiety and depression worse. I'm a little bit of a hypochondriac (ok, more than a little.) I'm pretty sure it's because I feel I need to get ahead of what could be a serious condition before it leaves me helpless with no one to help. Basically, "I better find out if this ache is a serious issue, while I'm still able to drive myself to an appointment." I'm making myself nuts over trying to stay in control.

Online User, thanks for the advice. I am seeking a new therapist right now and have vowed to be 100% open with them. I've had several therapists in the past and, while I've never lied to them, I've never told any of them the whole truth. My last therapist would ask me what I did for social activity and I would say "I went to book club last week" or "I volunteered on Sunday." And while it was always true, I'd leave out the part about those activities being sporadic and that there were no people that I got together with regularly.

I know, I know, I only hurt my progress. Even to my therapist, though, I didn't want to look too pitiful. Someone posted on these boards recently about the need to say they're "fine." that's totally me....even to my therapists to a degree. My next issue to tackle, along with the isolation, is the ability to be "not fine" when someone asks...which probably goes hand in hand with the isolation.

For everyone that feels the same, I'd never wish this on anyone, but it's still nice to know I'm not alone.