Feeling down today.

I'm afraid I'm going to end up a hermit. I think that, the older I get, the more I dislike people in general. People just upset me. I spend a lot of time alone (not really by choice for the most part, but I don't do a lot to change it these days, either) and when I do go out into the world to run errands I usually return to my home frustrated. Today I had to go to the Comcast (cable company) service center, which is about 2 miles from my house, and in that time I encountered so much stupidity on the road that I almost turned around and came home. That's not even counting the crap that happened on the way home. Some idiot pulled right out in front of me, nearly causing me to hit him and just waved at me when he did it. Then there are the people who can't navigate a 4-way stop because they're on their cell phones...and etc. I know that there is always stupidity on the road, but I work with the public...I encounter it every day. I'm glad I'm really good at hiding how I really feel or I would definitely be out of a job. For some reason my patients really like me. Hmmm.

And I used to really care deeply for people, more than I probably should have, but I can honestly say that there is no one left in my life that I value. It's sad, but it's true. When my guy friend broke our friendship back in June, I cried and everything the night he did it but then I was just over it. I guess I was just so used to friendships ending by that point, you know? I was thinking about it today, and couldn't believe it's been over two months since our friendship ended. And...huh...I've spent most of the summer alone. I think I've gone out with a friend maybe three times.

I read an article today which said that half of people polled would save a dog from an oncoming bus instead of a foreign tourist. I would definitely save the dog; it has nothing to do with the person being foreign. I definitely prefer animals over people.

Anyway, this post is kind of rambly. I'm just frustrated, sad and kind of lonely...