I've done something stupid, I think. I told my friends from back in the 80s that I'd meet them for a long weekend. Problem is that I think I won't be able to keep up with them financially. I am nervous and don't want to look like I've become a failure. I want them to still like me so badly and I'm afraid I won't fit in. I don't know why I said I'd go... I hope the money-thing falls into place so I won't have to lie to them about why I can't go. Besides, they're doing this to see ME (they have all kept up with one another). I feel like I even manage to feel bad about things that should make me happy. <sigh>