Hey everyone,
Well I had a bit of a fallout...a large one actually. I just got out of the hospital...I tried to kill myself again. This makes time number three for me and I feel lousy in every aspect of my life.
I do not know the main reason behind why I tried to do it but as much as I can figure my inability to find work after graduating just got to me and I snapped. Unfortunately the situation is still dangerous because I am still getting nowhere and am still very frustrated and extrememly depressed. No one understands. My boyfriend and my family is telling me I just have to keep trying, but they do not understand that to me my inability to find work reflects on who I am as a person. I feel like I just wasted four years of my life and now no one wants to hire me. I am a failure and I have no future...and I just did not want to continue going on like this.
I do not know how I am right now..I really dont, but I am here. I guess that is a start.

Jessica

<font color=blue> You are in this snowglobe. It is encovered in glass and secure. But one day someone comes and shakes the globe and the pieces go flying everywhere. Now they will eventually settle but they won't be the way they were before and they can never be that way again. </font color=blue>