Maranara,

Sweetie, my heart just breaks for you. I do know how you feel. I have been there. There's not much to do in a forum such as this, but if I can be helpful, tell me how. I will be your friend in this venue. In the last 2 years I have managed to begin to get better. I will be happy to share with you what I have done IF that is something that you want to hear. At this moment a silent prayer has been lifted for you.