On Friday I will finally be analyzed by a professional. And I'm so nervous about it. I'm quite certain I have OCD but what if the professional person says that I don't? Then what's causing me to behave like this? I can't stop thinking that I have OCD. It's I'm my mind 24/7. Every action I do is anazlyzed by me like, I do an action and I think: is this OCD? Does this mean I have OCD? Etc.
And also my nightly rituals of left right left right tap tap tap and always having to have my things in that position and that orientation and my paragraphing having to have an indentation of four spaces and always having my back to walls what is this if not OCD? What'll happen if the person says I don't have OCD? Then am I just crazy or super weird? What if the person says yes? What's gonna happen then? How will my parents react? Will they hate me for being such a burden to them? Will they think I'm just whining for attention? Will they hate me for wasting money? How about my friends? Will they treat me differently? Will they avoid me? Will they treat me like I'm made of emotional glass? If iI do CBT will it be painful? I'm scared of pain. I can't handle pain. Uctctcvtucyctftd okay am going to stop now bye bye sorry for any annoyance caused and thank you for reading...