I am doing my damndest to stay level and maintain a "normal" life with my partner, in the last year my meds were changed to something that actually works very well for me and have been in therapy trying to straighten out the poor decisions I have made in the past. My partner and I have even begun couples therapy and are starting to communicate again, but all of a sudden (probably not all of a sudden...I just may be seeing it clearly for the first time) I feel like I am in an emotionally abusive relationship... I have been the bread winner for the entirety of our 5 1/2 year relationship I have had no complaints about paying all the bills and making sacrifices in every way to ensure that we survive, she recently obliterated my trust and even though we are making steps to rebuild I'm still angry and hurt. And now since she got an inheritance due to the recent passing of her father (dealing with that too) she talks to me like I owe her. She bought us a new car and holds it over my head (even though I still have my car and it was good enough for her until recently) and yells about us moving out of my mom's house which I realize we need to do but I'm not about to change our living situation because she can temporarily afford her half of things, she has no job and basically has had no job the whole time we've been together. Money is not important to me, it does not impress me and it certainly does not run my life. That being said I am aware of the cost of living and being finacially responsible for the two of us and I can't do it alone and I shouldn't have to, but I am ready to tell her to take her money and walk the **** on! I'm sick of her drinking and pot smoking (don't get me wrong I'm all for a little relaxation and socially doing either of those things...but I have a zero tolerance policy for emotionally/mentally/finacially abusive alcholics as my step father was one), but to be honest since I've been put on lithium I have taken a good look at my life and I am unhappy with most of it and I feel like I'm processing things correctly for the first time in years I don't know what to do...
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