Thank you both. Unfortunately I find it difficult to take the advice to relax - I've already started doing the flooring again. Though I must hasten to admit: I am finding it a lot more exhausting to move than I have found it over the past weeks.

My eyes are sore from the lack of sleep, my mind is in overload about today and the future and I'm finding it hard to get comfortable on the sofa or in bed. I have that horrible feeling of being unoccupied yet unable to find something to satisfy my urge to DO something.

My mom is also on the case now - she has been dissatisfied with the quality of care I have received recently and, as she works as a quality assurance officer, I do believe she has a certain understanding of how things should be done.

I can't believe how ignorant this psychiatrist has been. I have had wonderful psychiatrists in the past but now I'm at a loss. If I ask for a new psychiatrist I'm stuck with the same problem. I'm not with the assertive team when I should be. It's a terrible world and not only have I been failed by those in my social group, I've also been failed by the one person who should know EXACTLY what needs to be done for my mental health.

I know there's four or five years worth of notes in my case folder but its her job to read through them to provide a good service. I always used to be proud to be British because of the NHS but its failing not just those with mental issues but those with physical issues, too.

Oh by the way: if she missed a note about the team I should be with, what's to say she won't miss a note about a serious complication or med that should be avoided?