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Originally Posted by pegasus
It's ok, I don't need to see your medical notes, I believe you. 
I can see both sides. I can see why your previous psychiatrist may have wanted you to be with the assertive outreach team but I can also see why the new psychiatrist does not. It's a bit gung ho to plonk you with the assertive outreach team if you might actually get better support with the community mental health team. That's my opinion because the assertive outreach team are more likely to 'force' things where as the community mental health team are more gentle. Saying all that, a lot of the assertive outreach teams have been disbanded in the UK as has many of the drug rehab teams.
I can surely understand your anger at this situation having been left for a while and then having to see a new psychiatrist.
Please get back to the social worker and discuss this further, you deserve help and support.
One other thing, I am concerned that you are on resperidone for sleep, it is an anti - psychotic and not usually for sleep issues. |
I know, I was also given Olanazpine to help me sleep, which as you will know is also an anti-psychotic.
And Pegasus, this is the thing. If I was getting sufficient help from CMHT, I wouldn't have even mentioned the assertive team. But I'm not getting the help I need. I feel as though there's no support for me now. I've only had a social worker and a psychiatrist for a year - both of whom wouldn't chase me if I missed an appointment (which I need as I am very forgetful) and both of whom offered appointments only every month or so, when I should be having an appointment with a nurse weekly. I also need home visits because of the difficulties I face in public but haven't had them either.
I had to phone my social worker at least 15 times last time and still didn't get an appointment. This was my old social worker who thankfully moved to a different job.
I feel abandoned and forgotten. Do you not agree that with my history I should have been helped more with the transition? When I said this to my social worker (old one) she simply rolled her eyes and said: You're 18 now, you're an adult, act like it. Be independent.
But I have comorbid conditions and especially Aspergers make independence extremely hard. It's why I'm hardly ever left at home by myself, why I never go out, why I can't go shopping, why I was turned down for a driving license.
I appreciate that I'm 18, but I need that encouragement and support with appointments like I used to have. I'm still not well, at all, which is probably why I had that panic attack today.
I've been left alone, and that is what's making it all worse. I need at least bi weekly appointments with a therapist, I need reminding, I need that help.
It's been so long. When I got put on the adult team it took me reaching suicidal lows and almost a year to get any type of appointment.
What do I do? I feel so lost and lonely. And scared and hopeless. I absolutely hate those moments I feel like suicide is my only option, but I'm stuck in that situation right now. This forum at the moment is my only helpline. I feel so isolated and broken. I'm autistic. High functioning autistic, yes. But I can't handle all this yet. It confuses me and I'm so lot and confused and I don't know where to turn or what to do :'(
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