It was great to meet you through the chat room this morning.
I want you to know (if it helps ) that I graduated college in 1991 and didn't landed a "professional job" related to my field until the end of 1993. Now I consider myself succesfull profesionally speaking, but at the beginning it was hard, very hard.
It must make you feel very special to have people that love you around you, hang on to that love!!
I wish I knew how you feel ... I don't .... But I remember how i felt ... it wasn't fun. However, it will work at the end.

gab