unhappyguy, how about your parents? Do they know that you are gay?

Sorry, reread the OP - so they did not want a gay son.

And now you are saying that you do not want to be gay - you want a cure which does not exist.

In other words, much as you realize that your parents damaged you, you are in full agreement with them: they did not want you to be gay, and you do not want yourself to be gay.