I find myself taking a lot of unscheduled sick days because I can't bring myself to get to work. I used to feel horrible about this, but today I'm not feeling bad. I think I'm pushing the idea that this is just what it takes for me to cope with life right now. I can be proud of the fact that I made it 2 weeks without taking a day off and I have just enough time to take today. If I can get through the next two weeks, I'll have enough for another day if it comes up or possibly I'll be able to cope.

Not sure why I'm posting this except to just communicate with others who would understand that taking this day off and not feeling guilty and bad is a success. So many others view it as a failure and even I beat myself up in the past about it. What I have to do now to cope is not necessarily what I'll have to do for the rest of my life. There are changes happening with my medicine finally and I am hoping to get neuropsych testing to see if there's an underlying cause to my depression and anxiety.

I still feel low energy and I hope I can get into the routine tomorrow and the next few weeks, but let's not suffer future pain. When they come, I will tackle the problem then.