The things your mom said--so awful. Has she ever been diagnosed with mental health issues? Or is she an addict? Don't get me wrong, I only care to read that you are ok, I have no empathy for parents who are horrible to their kids.

It just sounds like something is wrong with her--ever consider that you are the "healthy" one? That's not to say you don't need care, but she sounds disturbed. Your reactions seem like someone just trying to cope.