Sorry to hear of your situation, Unhappy guy. I'm not gay, so I can't relate on that level. I can relate to some other things you said. I'll turn 57 next month and I've not only never had a girlfriend, but I've also never had sex. It's the truth. I don't seem to have the tools to do anything about it either. I also have no friends and I'm alone most of the time. I'm not going to disrespect you by offering advice. I didn't notice you asking for any and I don't know what it's like to be in your specific shoes. I can only say that I'm on your side and ask you to please take care.