I can relate to the vicious cycle. My go to self "medication" is being alone away from the "noise" in the world. But I am unemployed and isolating is not going to help that. Big time "noise" in the dog eat dog job market. Especially now. It seems to come a lot easier to others. Friends have always been transient in my life. Usually people I worked with. Either I change jobs or they or I move away or just move on. But the world is a cruel place to be alone. I am having a hard time finding and excepting the help I need from people. Probably a trust issue with me. I have little faith that anyone will except me as I am.