Hi, there. I'm new here to the board and thought I'd share my story. Three months ago I had a massive depressive episode and had to quit my job at the small nonprofit where I was a senior-level accountant (no FMLA there). Depression has been a recurring thing for me for the past 25 years, usually about every four months. This episode has been one of the worst, though.

Three weeks ago I went on welfare because my savings had run out, and even though I don't feel up to returning to work, I've been desperately looking for another job. One of the problems is because of this illness, there have been times in my life where I couldn't work for extended periods, so my credit is LOUSY. No one wants to hire an accountant with bad credit. Plus, I'm so depressed I don't interview well anymore.

My days consist of staying in my apartment (no money, so there isn't a whole lot else to do) with my little dogs watching documentaries on Netflix and sending out resumes. The isolation is making me feel so much worse.

My therapist recently resigned, and they haven't found a replacement for him yet. I've been on so many different meds, and they just don't seem to work. Currently on Effexor and Abilify for depression as well as klonopin and prazosin for agoraphobia and PTSD. My psychiatrist is one of those "just snap out of it" people (pretty awful for a psychiatrist IMO), so she's not very helpful.

I'm so lonely. My ex-husband has my two sons most of the time because I don't always feel up to watching them. My parents are out of town on an extended vacation (another month to go). All my friends got tired of me and pretty much abandoned me. My boyfriend is still here, but I'm sure it's only a matter of time before he can't take it anymore. I see him a few times a week, and it seems like that's the only time I'm happy.

I'm so tired of being alone and isolated all the time. Currently trying to find a local support group just so I won't feel so lonely.

Well, thanks for listening. I guess it's time to tune into Netflix.....