Also, I love that you shared your depressive thought spiral!

"I currently believe that I'll end up leaving Boston in two years and then going to grad school where I won't make friends, and then getting a low level music job and living alone in an apartment where I will take my own life at age 25 when I am so bitterly lonely there is no point in trying anymore and the people that care about me won't be as badly hurt."

I have so done this and talked to myself like this!!

Here's what my depressive spiral sounds like, "And then I'll be living in some tenement and forced to sell my body for the drugs I have taken to numb my pain and my colicky child will be wailing and I will be contemplating how to escape my own life at which point a roach will crawl over my foot."