The spiral wasn't that easy or sudden. It has been building for over a year. First, personal issues, allowing someone in that brought the BPD to the surface. Then, moving across country. Also, continuing to try to make friends and having so many problems. And, finally, my job, working at home and the seemingly inability to find something else. Starting Saturday, I'll be working at home 19 days in a row. It has accumulated to make me a total mess. I have been in crisis, delusional, and paranoid to the hilt. I am having a much needed reprieve today. I have to just hope I can work out my job situation before I'm a danger to myself.....and I'm prepared to take action if I do....