I am so sorry for what you are going through and I wish you and your family much success in your healing work. I'm so happy to see you say that you have much work to do because it says you are healing and that you are committed to doing the work.

I had to reply though, to tell you this: I wish I wasn't but I am the Susan in my family. And I had a sister who held my hand until I could fall asleep, I was afraid of everything. I will never forget that my sister did that for me. It makes me feel good to think about how she did that for me; all I had to do was say her name and she would give me her hand.

Susan was so lucky to have a loving sister like you. I don't know, but I imagine that in quiet and fearful moments, she remembered you holding her hand and was comforted by that memory.

Bless you and your family