Okay. I can show her those posts. If there are any other posts you can think of that struck you, I can add it to the list of things to consider showing her. I still have no idea what to prioritize on that list.

Yeah, she does know about that. I'm doing a lot better with that. I'm still avoiding being around people that knew her because I feel guilty for not saying anything right after she died or going to her funeral. I won't go to my brother's school or to his piano concerts/lessons because they knew her.

I still mourn her loss intermittently. The problem is mostly morning the loss of a mother figure. I haven't managed to refill that the same way since. I guess in a way I view my T like a mother but not completely because she is really young. She's definitely older than me but I would be surprised if she were 30 years old. That changes it for me. I don't know why. Probably because I still put "adults" on this pedestal in my mind as people who are more put together and knowledgable even though the older I get, the more it seems like there are no "adults", just people who are trying to make their way.