I don't know how you learn to like yourself because I still hate parts of myself. I also love parts of myself. In therapy, we talk about the parts that hate and the hated parts and it's all very embarrassing but necessary to avoid going into my depressive spirals.

I never said in my post, "it gets better," and I didn't mean to imply that it will. But it can. And it most likely will.

I remember during one of my life low points hating all the polyanna up-with-people people who said, "it will get better," or, "you'll be ok."

Anyway, I'm sorry that it came across like that.

Whatever triggers these low points for you has got to be extracted from your life. I don't know how because you have to have the energy to do it. How many more days left at home now?

My T says that anger directed externally at the ones who hurt you is good. Anger is the part of you that says, "I don't deserve this. I deserve better. I'm worth more."