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Originally Posted by growlithing
I don't hate you for your response. I appreciated it. I appreciate everyone who follows my story and I especially appreciate everyone who takes the time to leave any response, let alone such a lengthy/thought out one as you did.
I'm not even completely sure what all of my triggers are yet. Obviously being here is one of them and talking to my mother is another. It's about to cross midnight here so in a few minutes it will be 10 days left. omfg 10 days left... ASDGSGKLJAGASF FINALLY ALMOST IN THE SINGLE DIDGETS!!!!! That's reason enough in its own to not stay up all night hurting myself like how I originally wanted to. I GET TO LEAVE.
My T thinks I have a lot of anger and I take it out on myself because expressing it was dangerous growing up.
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LOL! Yay for only 10 days!
I just started an antibiotic regimen for a bacteria infection that is 10 days and we'll both be done at the same time.
As far as anger at yourself - YESSSSSS. I do this too, like total f*cking rage at myself and I can be SO mean to myself.
I remember being a teenager and the man I lived with would get red in the face and rage at me. I mean just rage and yell like a big fat blowhard and then he'd say, "Don't get mad! Don't you dare get mad!"
Jerkwad. I quietly turned around, left the room, and then dipped his toothbrush in the toilet.
Scoop your mom's toothbrush under the rim of the toilet when she's not looking.