gayle ~ I am on medication. Bupropion HCL. My doctor just upped it from 150 mg to 300 mg. Clearly she understands my issues. I have a fantastic doctor. I have insurance through my job but my husband doesn't yet. Our marriage is recent; July 13th. We are waiting until next week to add him to my insurance as I am graduating Sunday and will get a rather large promotion at work and we will be able to afford to include him and our children on my insurance.

I hope that you received good news about your test. I do understand how hard it is to battle any kind of emotional distress without the option of medication if needed. I hope that you are able to start again soon.

I also find that writing helps. It's very cleansing just to get all of that out.

Rohag ~ It really depends on the circumstances. I am normally able to mentally get myself out of it but this time it just isn't working. I've been severely depressed for about a month now maybe a little longer. I hadn't been on medication in years and years but I knew the signs and went to my doctor immediately. I don't know why I can't get out of this slump. I feel like life is a battering ram and I'm the castle keep door. It just doesn't stop.

That isn't true actually. I am being drained. I go to school full time. My husband and my daughter take so much out of me. My work is the same as my home life so I get no escape. I am in the process of terminating my ex-husbands rights to my girls and it is going to be a long and vicious fight. I have too many people depending on me for answers and support but I have very little for myself. I just need a break. Mostly what I find myself thinking is that I don't want to live my life anymore. Not in a suicidal way; I have never gone to that level of depression thank God but just in an escape kind of way. I want out of being me. Not for forever. I love my work and I love my family. I just want someone else to take over so I can shut down for awhile.

online user ~ Exercise is a good suggestion. I run every night with my dog. It's my "me" time. The town is quiet and the world just seems to stop. It's the only time of peace I seem to get these days.