I don't think your T will see it like that, though. It's not like talking to a friend, when maybe they get impatient and ask you to get to the point. A good T will wait until YOU are ready. So you're not dangling it, because it's not about your T. You're telling your T that you have this stuff to share and you're not sure if you're ready. Your T shouldn't make that about her.

I have found it really helpful to talk about things like this. A few weeks ago, I sent my T an email about something and then freaked out and got it into my head that he wouldn't let me come in for my session if he'd read it, and that it would be awful walking past him into the room if he did let me. I texted asking him not to read it until I was there. So we had a conversation about why I was worried about that, how I felt, what I was scared of, and it helped a lot. It also helped to talk about whether I wanted to have him read it and then discuss it, or just have him read it and see that he didn't hate and reject me afterwards.

I don't know about the law where you are, but Ts are certainly not obliged to report all crimes or abuse reported to them. Historic events would not be reportable to my knowledge.

I'm sorry this is causing you so much anguish. I want you to know that, whether I've emailed something to my T, or handed it to him to read in a session, I have always felt better for just kind of getting rid of it and not being alone with it and seeing that it can be in the room with us.