Hospitals scare me, too, ever since I went to visit my mother in a mental institution when I was a child. She'd just had shock treatments & scared me, as did the other patients.

I've had some docs who wanted to put me into the hospital, but I always refused. I did go through an out-patient program, though, where you went for about 4-5 hours a day & got to go home. It was very helpful for me & started me on the road to recovery. You might look into that. Take care.--Suzy