Hello I hope things are going better for you at this time. I have a chat here at Psych central on Monday Wed and Friday from 2-3pm and you are more than welcome to come there to tak. Also I want to leave you a hotline number that you can call if you need someone to talk to in person. 1-800-273-TALK it is for mentl health issues, but I am sure they will talk to you about your concerns. You may want to consider getting into counseling since, everyone here are probably not going to be qualified to give you the professional advice you need regarding your marriage.
I hope the best for you. Take care Sincerely Soidhonia